Last Wednesday, i was at Mid Valley to catch the premiere of Shinjuku Incident featuring Jackie Chan & Daniel Wu. To be honest, the show is ganas gila babi at some parts. The man of the night redeemed 2 free tickets sponsored by Angela while i thought, wow! Free tickets!
While waiting for admission, rows n rows of ppl stood among us, all with the free tickets as well lol. Then while finding for our seat, we found out that free tickets come with a catch. Our seats were rigghhhttttt 5 rows before the screen. Ouch. To add a bonus, its at the side of the cinema. More ouch. But hey! Free ticket right? I thought nvm.
Soon, the screen blinks into live.... ah i thought, the first ad or premier of the day. Who would have known a blardy horror ghost movie was the first premier screening. Plus, its not just an ordinary premier, it's a THAI horror movie "Coming Soon".
OMG WTFSHITBBQ! I practically looked down the entire way after first few minutes of seeing gruesome parts n couldn't shift my glued eye away from the screen!
Shitty hell the make up effect was like the first Exorcist movie, well almost ok. & what's worst is, to my right, the 2 seats were unoccupied by anyone. To my left however, i saw this girl practically cowering in her bf's arms, hiding her face away into his shoulders and arm pits.
ok ok, enough of that rubbish, but never will i wanna watch that movie lol.
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today, i just came back from Cheng Ming or how they call it... Cheng Beng? Yeah, so i went n pay respect to my late uncle. If he was still alive, this year he would be 47. I know its not a happy n nice thing to talk about dead people.
But boy....we bought some paper stuff to burn for him as offerings. This time, they bought new shoes, a nice big simple bungalow house, beers, soda drinks n some other stuffs. This year they didn't bought a car with the driver for him. I guess cos last year he already had the driver and the car. But this isn't really my beliefs, it's theirs. So .... when i payed respect ,i just said "uncle, hope you enjoy your new shoes n bungalows n Ur beers n if the rest of the ppl wanna share, its up to u lah".
With that, i put the joysticks in front of his name plate.
Standing at a cemetery isn't the most exciting thing to do, however it really makes u see ur life in perspective. Millions of thoughts rushed through my mind at that moment.
Although it has been 14 years since his passing, i really wondered how if he was still alive. That instead of the burial site, he is in the house with us, laughing away, perhaps with a pretty wife n kids as well. That every chinese new year he passes ang pao's to all the kids, that maybe he is a cool uncle ....he could discuss with nieces and nephews about latest things, what is cool and what is not.
Many things went through my mind at that time, but a few blinks and I was back to where i was, burial site.
If only his life didn't fade this way, that we don't have to weep for him like how we do now. If only he is still alive and walking, he would have led a good life now.
If only, but i guess it's not.
Monday, April 6, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Poison.
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Dearest knight,
" Everyday when you wake up & taste the bitter vial, only than you would know how i feel each day."
" When you plunge your face into a deep bowl of water and refuse to emerge yourself, your lungs screaming for air, your brain produces sparks of electrifying stars telling you .... you will die unless you pull out now...
.......
And then suddenly, you had enough. Pulling out from the water, taste the air like you've never tasted before. Deep gulfs of air in your lungs. You feel like you're reborn, a brand new person.
& until you know how i feel,
don't tell me how you feel, because i will not listen.
It's not all about you.
Taste the bitter vial, and then you will know.
good day, my knight and shining amour.
Vampires?
I've been following this series these days. No joke that it's my first manga I've laid eyes on. Am not a big fan of anime and manga stuffs. Since i've always been fascinated by vampires and werewolves myths and legends, I'm interested in this series. If you're interested in vampires, then this manga is nicely done! Not to say superb, but it's something like Twilight.
Twilight is released after Vampire Knight, so no doubt VK created the vampire frenzy.
The story is really good. It's whats been keeping me entertained throughout a boring week. Wanna know what's it about?
Read away!
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Chilling in the dark.
My house is very very good.
by saying very good, this is the list of things happened before, during and after EARTH HOUR.
Astro went cuckoo.
Internet line slowed down because of the AWESOME monkey's behind my backyard, humping and jumping on the pole line.
Every morning in my sleep, i've being greeted by those awesome monkey's that i wished i own a good M16 or whatever shotgun i have, to blow their brains out.
As for Earth Hour, we sat in the dark. Being an idiot or not, i don't know, but i guess its a small contribution to mother earth. Me and my mom sat in the dark, chilling with our laptops lol. As for me, i wasn't alone.
No la, not ghost beside me la. In a sense that nyamuks and small insects love my lappy screen so much, all go on my screen.
Wonder how were everyone's earth hour?
by saying very good, this is the list of things happened before, during and after EARTH HOUR.
Astro went cuckoo.
Internet line slowed down because of the AWESOME monkey's behind my backyard, humping and jumping on the pole line.
Every morning in my sleep, i've being greeted by those awesome monkey's that i wished i own a good M16 or whatever shotgun i have, to blow their brains out.
As for Earth Hour, we sat in the dark. Being an idiot or not, i don't know, but i guess its a small contribution to mother earth. Me and my mom sat in the dark, chilling with our laptops lol. As for me, i wasn't alone.
No la, not ghost beside me la. In a sense that nyamuks and small insects love my lappy screen so much, all go on my screen.
Wonder how were everyone's earth hour?
Thursday, March 26, 2009
ESCAPE.
Normally when people see me, what do they see? Do they see i'm always smiling? Perhaps they always hear a happy tone from my voice? When someone is with me, how do they feel? Do they feel good? Do they feel that i'm friendly with them and makes them happy? When people ask for help from me, don't i go to them as fast as i can? Don't i help people sincerely? Don't i try my best to make them feel better?
Maybe i did. Maybe not. This don't apply to everyone out there who have met me.
Right now,
i need help.
Right now,
i'm beyond depressed. i'm shattered. It is something beyond my control, beyond my grasps. It is not my power to stop what is happening. I can stop it, only if i'm intended to. I'm intended, but there is no courage.
Yesterday, after all the doubts and crushed, you walked with me. It doesn't matter where, you were determined to come although you shouldn't, but you walked with me. No question that i'm keeping personal details out of this, such as our actions. Through all that, you still wont leave.
I'm amazed. But i'm not buying it. Whats left of everything has left me as well. I'm a mere friend now, that's what if feels to me. I have no courage to specifically tell you why, where and how it went wrong. But part of it, you knew. Yet, you will never change. It's obvious and something that i have to accept and let it go. Let everything go.
Right now, i have no more feeling. i wished i knew where those feeling went, i lost it. I wished i knew how to catch it back, but i don't plan to. I wished it didn't have to be you who face pain once again as much as i do, but it happens.
Everything happens for a reason.
This reason, we both know why. You tried too hard, yet you complain to me and expect me to do something to compensate the effort you've put in. How can I ? How can i do that when i myself don't think it is worth anymore effort? The past effort that i've put in order to make you realised, and yet, you didn't. When it's too late, you try your best, tried too hard to save it. Thus....it slips off from your fingers like sand caught blown away by the wind, like water dripping to the ground although you tried to save a drop, yet....gravity stole it from you.
Everything happens, for many reasons.
I tried to love you again, i couldn't. I don't know what is love anymore. My heart is only wrecked by the pain which you have planted in it from your past deeds. My mind is shadowed by the continuous selfish and abusive actions and thoughts you have non-reluctantly showed me.
Though you're a good man. A fine man who could spare a ladies feelings, who knows how to make a person feel better when their hurt, you know how to say some right words at some right times.
You are not up to the par yet. No, i'm not expecting you to be perfect, i'm not expecting you to be so great. Sometimes, i have to tell you things that common sense is in the picture. Things a lady do not need to tell a man what to do. Sometimes, i feel that because you are guided too much by your own family, you're not so capable of thinking for yourself that much. Sometimes i felt that way, i don't have anything against your family. I'm not trying to bad mouth.
But i just can't take it anymore. You know when you do something that annoys your girl, yet you still do it again and again. You say you'll stop, but at the same time, you think it's nothing wrong, you think why should i stop when i'm so used to doing it, it triggers no harm to me?
But it triggers harm to a person's heart. It hurts the person, yet , do you bother? I don't think so.
Like today, you brought back up the topic again. I felt like a knife just stabbed me right in the middle of my heart because of what you were doing. You were asking the impossible. Seeking the insanity. You were asking things i couldn't answer you, yet, you made it like as though everything is fine, in your point of view. I could not answer, i was devastated.
I realized, I'm giving you a false hope. False hope that is so high, it is higher then KLCC. What my friend said was right, you have too high hopes for nothing. I don't know how to tell you anymore. I want it to be over, but at the same time, i am feeling guilty. I'm hurting you, but i can't stand it anymore when things are just so....false.
I need a place to run, to get rid of this nightmare. I need to ESCAPE.
Maybe i did. Maybe not. This don't apply to everyone out there who have met me.
Right now,
i need help.
Right now,
i'm beyond depressed. i'm shattered. It is something beyond my control, beyond my grasps. It is not my power to stop what is happening. I can stop it, only if i'm intended to. I'm intended, but there is no courage.
Yesterday, after all the doubts and crushed, you walked with me. It doesn't matter where, you were determined to come although you shouldn't, but you walked with me. No question that i'm keeping personal details out of this, such as our actions. Through all that, you still wont leave.
I'm amazed. But i'm not buying it. Whats left of everything has left me as well. I'm a mere friend now, that's what if feels to me. I have no courage to specifically tell you why, where and how it went wrong. But part of it, you knew. Yet, you will never change. It's obvious and something that i have to accept and let it go. Let everything go.
Right now, i have no more feeling. i wished i knew where those feeling went, i lost it. I wished i knew how to catch it back, but i don't plan to. I wished it didn't have to be you who face pain once again as much as i do, but it happens.
Everything happens for a reason.
This reason, we both know why. You tried too hard, yet you complain to me and expect me to do something to compensate the effort you've put in. How can I ? How can i do that when i myself don't think it is worth anymore effort? The past effort that i've put in order to make you realised, and yet, you didn't. When it's too late, you try your best, tried too hard to save it. Thus....it slips off from your fingers like sand caught blown away by the wind, like water dripping to the ground although you tried to save a drop, yet....gravity stole it from you.
Everything happens, for many reasons.
I tried to love you again, i couldn't. I don't know what is love anymore. My heart is only wrecked by the pain which you have planted in it from your past deeds. My mind is shadowed by the continuous selfish and abusive actions and thoughts you have non-reluctantly showed me.
Though you're a good man. A fine man who could spare a ladies feelings, who knows how to make a person feel better when their hurt, you know how to say some right words at some right times.
You are not up to the par yet. No, i'm not expecting you to be perfect, i'm not expecting you to be so great. Sometimes, i have to tell you things that common sense is in the picture. Things a lady do not need to tell a man what to do. Sometimes, i feel that because you are guided too much by your own family, you're not so capable of thinking for yourself that much. Sometimes i felt that way, i don't have anything against your family. I'm not trying to bad mouth.
But i just can't take it anymore. You know when you do something that annoys your girl, yet you still do it again and again. You say you'll stop, but at the same time, you think it's nothing wrong, you think why should i stop when i'm so used to doing it, it triggers no harm to me?
But it triggers harm to a person's heart. It hurts the person, yet , do you bother? I don't think so.
Like today, you brought back up the topic again. I felt like a knife just stabbed me right in the middle of my heart because of what you were doing. You were asking the impossible. Seeking the insanity. You were asking things i couldn't answer you, yet, you made it like as though everything is fine, in your point of view. I could not answer, i was devastated.
I realized, I'm giving you a false hope. False hope that is so high, it is higher then KLCC. What my friend said was right, you have too high hopes for nothing. I don't know how to tell you anymore. I want it to be over, but at the same time, i am feeling guilty. I'm hurting you, but i can't stand it anymore when things are just so....false.
I need a place to run, to get rid of this nightmare. I need to ESCAPE.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Exhibition at Grand Millennium Hotel Bukit Bintang
21st March & 22nd March (Saturday and Sunday). - Health & Fitness Exhibition.
I worked part time for my friend's dad who is at the poster below. Mr. T.Selva writes for The Star every sunday. The author of Vasthu Sastra Indian Feng Shui book. Mr. T.Selva was very nice to let me have the opportunity to work for his behalf to promote his products.
This is the booth where i worked.
The friend of mine, attending to foreigners.
The left side of the hall.
the right side of the hall.
Yes, i didn't spare the toilet lol. But look at it! So grand! Plus, those 2 sinks were on this marble like table in the middle of the bathroom. and the mirror is on the left, head to toe. How unique.
Guess who? This is the Sultana of Pahang her royal majesty/highness! This is Duli Yang Maha Mulia Sultanah Hajjah Kalsom binti Abdullah.
A clearer pic of her.
She was really friendly and warm. I shooked hands with her :D .
One of the many beautiful genuine arts being displayed. I took this in secret. Damn beautiful, would be better if it's seen on the spot.
Pusat Pakar Mata Centre for Sight. B6
This is the spot where the mysterious guy was at. I doubt he will ever get to see my blog and come across through this. He past my booth twice. I kept looking at him, he kept looking at me. And the rest? Well, the rest is history.
But he looked so alike my classmate, Johan (The one with the cap sitting right in front).
The guy's eyes is nicer. Huge eyes. But his really really cute. Sigh...won't get to see him anymore. I regret didn't try to get to know him and get his contact. But i guess if fate allows me to see him again, maybe it can happen, but chances are rare. Definitely rare.
And last but not least, can you guess what r these?
It's alive. It lives in freshwater. And it's what people wish they do not encounter with. Thus, doctor's recommend it, Medical benefits from it. Can you guess what is it? This things breeds fast too. Icky i know.
Mysterious guy, how i wish i know who you are!
I worked part time for my friend's dad who is at the poster below. Mr. T.Selva writes for The Star every sunday. The author of Vasthu Sastra Indian Feng Shui book. Mr. T.Selva was very nice to let me have the opportunity to work for his behalf to promote his products.
This is the booth where i worked.
The friend of mine, attending to foreigners.
The left side of the hall.
the right side of the hall.
Yes, i didn't spare the toilet lol. But look at it! So grand! Plus, those 2 sinks were on this marble like table in the middle of the bathroom. and the mirror is on the left, head to toe. How unique.
Guess who? This is the Sultana of Pahang her royal majesty/highness! This is Duli Yang Maha Mulia Sultanah Hajjah Kalsom binti Abdullah.
A clearer pic of her.
She was really friendly and warm. I shooked hands with her :D .
One of the many beautiful genuine arts being displayed. I took this in secret. Damn beautiful, would be better if it's seen on the spot.
Pusat Pakar Mata Centre for Sight. B6
This is the spot where the mysterious guy was at. I doubt he will ever get to see my blog and come across through this. He past my booth twice. I kept looking at him, he kept looking at me. And the rest? Well, the rest is history.
But he looked so alike my classmate, Johan (The one with the cap sitting right in front).
The guy's eyes is nicer. Huge eyes. But his really really cute. Sigh...won't get to see him anymore. I regret didn't try to get to know him and get his contact. But i guess if fate allows me to see him again, maybe it can happen, but chances are rare. Definitely rare.
And last but not least, can you guess what r these?
It's alive. It lives in freshwater. And it's what people wish they do not encounter with. Thus, doctor's recommend it, Medical benefits from it. Can you guess what is it? This things breeds fast too. Icky i know.
Mysterious guy, how i wish i know who you are!
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